Day 15- If you could speak to any horse, dead or alive, what would you say?

Day 15- If you could speak to any horse, dead or alive, what would you say?

Lellow, I’m so, so sorry buddy. I knew better than to leave you at that place. It was only supposed to be for a short time, so a nice family could come and pick you up like I had planned. They had something come up and weren’t able to pick you up when they were supposed to. The people who I trusted to take care of you didn’t. They are awful people and I didn’t think they would sink as low as they did. I trusted them to keep you safe and they didn’t. I’m sorry I wasn’t there when you died and I’m sorry I didn’t visit you as much as I could have. I didn’t protect you the way you protected me all those times. I thought we were going to have a nice long life together and you would be the horse that would teach my kids to ride. But that is all gone. Part of me died right along with you that cold December day. I didn’t come and visit you after you were gone because I couldn’t make myself see you like that so cold and all alone. I wanted to go and I wanted and rip off that tarp they covered you up in because I know that tarps were the only thing in the world that scared you. I wanted you to wake up and it would have been all just a bad dream and we would be together for many more years. It wasn’t supposed to end like that, you aren’t supposed to be gone. I still imagine that you are alive somewhere. And that the awful people that were supposed to take care of you actually just sold you to someone else. Every time I see a palomino I stop for a second and look them over to see if it is you. I hope and wish that it is you, and that you are being properly taken care of by someone that loves you. There are songs that come on the radio that make me think of you. and it makes my heart heart to hear them. Just the other day driving home from work I heard a song and I cried like a baby. People must have thought I was crazy.
I like to think that you are  watching me from above when i am with Piney. He reminds me alot of you. I like to imagine that you helped push me towards him and decide that he was a good partner for me. He is very patient with me and he is very forgiving. He likes to give kisses for treats like you did. but he hasn't almost broken my nose like you did a few times!  He even has the exact same right hind sock that you did. He takes care of me buddy. And I love him. He's a good boy, buddy I think you would have liked him. He needed me as much as I needed him.
I just wanted to say, I’m sorry "Stinky". You deserved better than me. I'm sorry that I failed you buddy. i love you, and will always love you. There is never going to be a horse that can or will replace you. I just wish we could go for one more gallop across an open field, for old times sake.